BREAKING NEWS!!!

The ever so kind and thoughtful Ms. Nora Chipley Barteau gave "Random Encounters" five stars and a glowing review!  You can see it here:

http://norachipleybarteau.blogspot.com/2011/10/random-encounters-by-kathleen-walker.html

Thank you very much, Nora! It's both humbling and redeeming for someone objective to confirm what *I* already knew...it's a great read! lol!

*HUGS* ~ K

Getting it together

Monday greetings, all!

I don't intend to make it a habit to twice weekly post, however...I now have the correct links.  I'm still waiting for the paperback version to show up in Amazon's cue, I thought it would by now but they must be running behind.  I'll be back with that link as soon as I have it.  Or, put in an order for paperback through my website http://www.lifelovelust.webs.com/ and I'll send you one out. 

E-reader available:

"Bright Lights, Money & Show Biz, Honey" http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/92296 , Coupon Code VV99W

"Random Encounters" http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/72549 , coupon code JD58M

Further proof of my loonyness, right now both are available @ 20% off only at Smashwords.com with the coupon codes above.  That is $3.19 each!  Who wouldn't love reading at such an insanely cheap price?  Enjoy!

Hugs and happy Monday,

~ K

NEW BEGINNINGS…

Life really is a big circle. From the new hope-filled awakening to the time to rest the weary soul, the cycle is full of changes.  Times to reach out and times to hold back, “a time to ev’ry purpose”. Lately I have been reminded of how fleeting and precious our own happiness can be, and how important it is to protect it by taking an active role in our own futures.  Take relationships, for instance.  Sure, a lot of stuff that happens to us is definitely not under our control - how else do you account for selfish relatives, flaky friends, or unpredictable (me!) lovers?   But uncertainty is about the only constant in life, and you gotta deal with it.  

One way is to keep trying, reinforcing what we want, even in little ways.   Yesterday, I went to a local holistic festival and bought a couple little trinkets that supposedly symbolized some of the things I wanted in my life.  One little polished stone represented ‘New Beginnings’, and I bought it for my dear friend.  He smiled when I gave it to him, but said it made him think, too, about things.  Afterwards, we had a great afternoon together, better than for some time before.  Little things. They really do make a difference. 

It's that time of year we segue from the carefree warm summer days of flip-flops and tank tops, to flannel over shirts, long pants, and real shoes.  I hate real shoes.   The change of seasons had me thinking that it's a good time for new beginnings.  To put away old hurt feelings and replace them with positive vibrations.  Sometimes, one of the hardest things for us to do is give up old habits that we've lived by, even when we know those old habits are detrimental to us.  It's comfortable.  Like that dysfunctional family...every family is as far as I'm concerned, 'cause we all have our quirks, but the point is, it's still a family.  People close to us who have accepted us in whatever state we are in, whether it's to the good or bad.  We get comfortable with that and even though we know it's not serving us well, it's still hard to change a whole lifetime and move forward.  This will be my new challenge and I'm grateful for friends who are allowing me some much needed crazy time to make the changes in my life that I know I must. 

One thing that doesn't change...I write.  Day, night, from keyboard to screen, on paper, in my head, into the recorder for transcription later, anywhere...anytime.  I wake in the night thinking of story lines, or characters or how I should change a phrase, or add one...you get the picture.  Writing is ingrained in me; I couldn't stop doing it any more than I could stop breathing, to serve anyone. Which brings me to...all three of my finished books are available for purchase now.  I received and approved the final draft of "Bright Lights, Money & Show Biz, Honey".  Right now, the paperback is only available at Amazon.com.  I will have other outlets to purchase it in the near future.  I previously was not going to release an e-reader version of it because I knew how much time goes into preparation of the e-reader formats and wasn't prepared for all that work, but Smashwords.com is the one site that makes it very easy.  I just get the manuscript e-reader ready, and their handy-dandy online converter does the rest of the work.  It's a beautiful thing!  So for now, the e-reader version is only available at Smashwords.com.  Or, you can still buy any at my website www.lifelovelust.webs.com.  If you buy either "Random Encounters" or "Bright Lights" I'll throw in a copy of my poetry anthology.  It's a little bit of the zany in me and is very close to my heart.  My new website, life-love-lust.com is currently under construction and I hope to have it finished by next week's blog.  Such aspirations!  I'll keep you updated on that as when I switch over, the store to purchase books will change to there. 

Hug somebody today! I haven't yet...and dammit! I miss it very much. 

Commencingly yours,

~ K

p.s.  Thank you, Gordy.  For allowing me to be me, and allowing my loonyness into your life.  *heart*

A rare mid-week update

I stay so freakin' busy during the work week (since I don't have that fat publishing contract YET, I still work a day job) I never even look at the blog during the week, but now that the short, short story can be viewed on smashwords.com, I wanted to update ya'll. 

http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/91532

Also, I do have in my grubby little achey hands (it's raining here today!) the absolute, final proof copy of "Bright Lights, Money & Show Biz, Honey",  I'll give a good thorough proofing to make sure it's all correct this time and announce an official release date.  I know...anticipation is high! :-D

Peaceful Tuesday to ya'll....big hugs! ~ K

Details...details...

With the paperback version of "Bright Lights, Money & Show Biz, Honey" ready to unveil, I planned the much anticipated release and began to get my completed manuscript ready for e-distribution.  This is enough to make a writer go stark raving mad! All of the different e-versions to format...there's EPUB, Sony is LRF, Kindle uses .mobi, Palmdoc is PDB, there's the standard PDF, RTF, and plain text versions.  AND...AND...all of the online publications use A DIFFERENT ONE!!!  There is a point to my madness here, folks, so stay with me. 

I logged into my Smashwords account to upload a new file, a very short story I really like and decided to give away in e-format for free.  How can you do that, Kathleen, you ask?!?! Believe me, it’s a *very* short story and it's just one of those things that brings a smile to my little round face.  I enjoy writing so much and seriously would give it all away if I could, but there's overhead and paper and printing costs, and such... 

Anyway, I continue to digress, I went into my Smashwords account and brought up my dashboard and accidentally clicked on "Random Encounters" to do a review after I uploaded the short story.  I was massively horrified to find that unknown to me, as no one ever said anything about it, I had uploaded an incorrect version of "Random Encounters" and didn't even know it! Holy embarrassment, Batman!  So, if you are one who purchased a download from Smashwords, my humble apologies for you getting an incorrect version.  It has now been corrected to the right format, however I know that doesn't help anyone who has already paid for it.  Please e-mail me and I'll see that you get a paperback copy of the book to make up for having downloaded an incorrect format. 

In the middle of my cursing, yelling at dead air and causing my goofy black lab to run to his bed and bury his head in his paws, I realized part of my lunacy problem.  It was eerily quiet in my home office.  It suddenly occurred to me there was no music playing.  Anywhere.  This is an odd situation for me.  There is always music playing near me, even if it's with my ear buds so only I can hear.  I do have some consideration for my housemates who abhor my music blasting at all hours.  I knew the lack of music was the reason my disposition was irritating not only the poor innocent dog, but me as well. I opened up Spotify and clicked on "Motley Crue" and soon I was chair wiggling to Vince encouraging me to take a ride on the "Wild Side" and all was right with my warped little world again *happy dance*.

So that brings me to one of the points of today's blog.  A free download of a short, short story titled "Til Death" will be available at Smashwords. I will provide the link as soon as I receive it. I hoped it would be ready for today, but apparently Smashwords is a little behind on the "pending approval" status of uploads and it's not ready yet. By next week I'm sure I'll have it and I can bring it to you. I hoped you might enjoy reading some of what goes through my twisted little (and I do mean little) mind at times.  I think it's a fun story and is at least enough of a distraction to take your mind off of anything clouding your thoughts today.  I will from time to time add to the free short stories until I run out, which means... NEVER!  My tweaked brain never runs out of something to ramble about in print.  Verbally...not so much. 

Lastly, due to having too many projects going at once and not near enough time to give them all their full due, I'm going to release "Bright Lights, Money & Show Biz, Honey" in a limited edition paperback.  There will be 100 copies available for purchase in paperback as you see it on this blog screen with the picture on the front. It will eventually be available in e-reader versions, but the paperback will come out first.  Sheesh...it's gonna take me a while to get all those different e-reader versions done! I'm just one woman, not a machine *snicker*.  As soon as I receive the absolute final proof copy from Amazon this week, I'll release it for sale and I'll announce officially here when that happens.  I do, of course, have to proof the proof copy (isn't that what one does with a proof?) and make extra sure this time all is formatted correctly! Yikes!

My next book, the longest actual novel I have written thus far (not a novella) is going to take me until the first of the year to complete for release in paperback.  I still don't have a cover, which needs to consist of a cowboy image, horses, a beautiful woman who bears a striking resemblance to Gwyneth Paltrow, a ranch with some cattle on the range and that sort of thing, and also the title is coming into question.  More on that when I get closer to a release date.  I originally started "If I Weren't So..." in 2006, and have edited, revisited, re-edited, revised, reformatted...etc.,  and it's one of those that I could keep making subtle changes to forever, but I really want it to be read so will have to find a way to call it good soon and be satisfied with my finished product.  Maybe I'll have a 'name that novel' contest.  Yes! That would splendid! *Happy face*.  I could post a synopsis and let readers give ideas for a proper name.  I'm pretty fond of "If I Weren't So..." but I could be bought (had).  The sequel is titled "Still Wanted" and that will come later in 2012, probably late fall, or perhaps closer to the holidays. 

Hug somebody today! I did and it was divine.  The highlight of my day!   

Fictionally yours,

~ K

"Entitlement" ~ A rare rant, and miscellaneous random ramblings

That word is tossed around far too often for my liking.  What is entitlement?  Encarta dictionary definition: "to give somebody the right to have or to do something".

We are born with some rights.  Basic human rights and the rights conferred on us by our constitution. Entitlement? Some people seem to think that the mere act of being born entitles them to certain comforts.  I get short tempered with people who sit around and moan and complain that life has dealt them a crappy hand because they don't have it as good as the next guy.  Wah!  I realize there are some who from the get go are disadvantaged, but the people I know and are specifically speaking of, have no disadvantages except they are lazy and unmotivated.  So...life didn't turn out with a story book ending? Join the club.  I can't think of any that do.  Even privileged people have problems that I don't envy.  Heartache, death, addiction, unemployment, catastrophic loss, any number of life's curves thrown our way that knows no economic status, or discrimination.  Daily difficulties in life affect all of us, how we deal with them separates us.   Sometimes recognizing how others deal with daily life helps me to take a step back and examine my own actions and reactions.

What turned my normally sweet disposition sour, you ask.  Well...it's been a crappy week. I find that when things aren't going so smoothly, I tend to get more irritable.  I found I was doing my share of whining myself, and that bothered me.  It's too easy to get sucked into the poor pitiful me party, so I decided I'd get it out of my system and maybe I'd feel better.

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I was reading comments at one of the writer's websites I frequent.  I get so weary of authors who think their manuscript is the most fascinating writing to come about since "The Great Gatsby" (or, insert any classic novel here) whining about not being able to find a publisher/agent, whichever the case may be.  Their attitude is, since they wrote it, and it's finished, they have the right to have it published.  Bullshit!  Publishers, agents and editors are so saturated with manuscripts and queries right now, I'm surprised they can even leave their offices.  I have several stories finished.  I'm not so self centered to believe they are greatness.  I aspire to greatness, and maybe someday I'll get near there with practice, practice, practice...as the saying goes. I have a simple way of storytelling that I hope will appeal to a certain audience. I don't love every book I pick up. I don't love every author I've ever read. I'm sure some readers and reviewers disagree with me. That doesn't offend me.  Writing is subjective and not all styles of writing appeal to all readers. Conversely, I've read many independent authors novels that I thought were terrific and found it beyond comprehension that a publisher had not picked up their novel.  To feel one is entitled to a lucrative publishing contract based on ones own opinion of their art, is unrealistic.

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I've also noticed an increase in whining about our economy being in the septic.  Not much an individual can do about that, what with our government in such dire straights.  I feel for those folks who have through no fault of their own, lost their jobs.  It's devastating.  I know, cause I've lost jobs in the past and I know how it feels.  I've had to search for a job, so I know rejection and how difficult it is to find a job in tough times.  But, for cryin'outfreakin'loud,  get up off the couch, put down the remote or the game controller, whatever is capturing your attention, and do something positive! No one can make a difference in your life, but you. 

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What's up with college football?  Every season, we get some college team who had a terrific year, then are slapped with NCAA sanctions on the current season due to violations in the past.  Are college educated people really that stupid?  To believe they can get away with violating the rules to obtain the best players and give them an advantage isn't logical. I don't have a college degree, but my common sense tells me if I violate the rules, I'm going to get caught and pay a price for it.  Smarten up, people. 

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I've received a few comments in e-mail (why there is a phobia to comment here, I don't know) about my blog.  Specifically, that it is too "unadorned".  Well...I'm an unadorned kind of gal. No glitz, glamour, or frills.  I'm pretty simple, my writing style is simple, and I really don't have the patience to ghetto up the blog for aesthetic purposes.  I like the color, and the serenity of the simplicity. The objective is to communicate, promote my books and give other artists a forum to promote their art.  Putting up video, cutesy snapshots or other photoshopped garb would take away from the main subject.  So, deal with it.  People who know me, know that what you see, is what you get.  I'm not a superficial kind of person, nor do I give in to what is popular or mainstream.  Hence, being an independent artist. 

There. All better now.  Me whining about other people's whining.  The pot calling the kettle black, you say? Well, sometimes we all need to blow off a little steam. And, sometimes...we just feel powerless over some things in our lives that we want to change, but have no control of and it makes us miserable, so we complain, or rant, or take it out on others when we don't really mean to, or it shows in our attitude. What's your rant today? Post it here and feel better.  

Stealing a cue from my friends at Hobart (www.hobartpulp.com, if you haven't visited them, please do):

Things we like: Green olives in spaghetti sauce, the new Camaro SS (in cops-chase-me red!), maple cupcakes with bacon topping from Temptations, non-judgmental friends, NCIS reruns (can't wait for the season opener!), kids going back to school, the burning bushes turning, new shoes, the porch, eating ripe tomatoes right off the upside down vine, a really smooth red wine, new music by anybody putting out new music, the playoffs, fall.   

Things we dislike: judgmental people, chips that break when you try to scoop the dip, flies in the kitchen, vacuum left at the bottom of the stairs (again!), extortion, missing a close friend, expired coupons, work, hurt feelings, new shoes, Lee Child gave Jack Reacher a girlfriend and a house(!), snooty artists with I'm-better-than-you attitudes, grudges.

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Now that I've gotten all that off my chest, I'll go back to my usual annoyingly sweet self.  I will get back to the business of writing, reading, and reviewing. I have some great independent artists to bring you in the coming weeks.  Something tells me I'll have plenty of time for that now.  I'm currently reading "A Spy At Home" by Joseph Rinaldo and will have a review and interview with the author in the near future.  My apologies to artists who have contacted me to read, review and interview. I've been a little overwhelmed with e-mails on that subject and I decided the only fair way to do it, was first come.  I've had to decline a few simply due to the subject matter not of my interest, i.e. children's books.  I don't have a desire to read or review children's books, so if you're a children's author I will save you the time of submitting to me.  I still need musicians to interview, too, so if you're a musician who would like a shameless plug, please get in touch, speshlk0510@msn.com, or tweet @speshlk0510. 

"Random Encounters" and "LifeLoveLust" are available: www.lifelovelust.webs.com or for e-reader versions lulu.com, smashwords.com, or amazon.com.  I haven't decided yet on a firm release date for "Bright Lights, Money & Show Biz, Honey" but it'll be soon and I most certainly will announce it here first. 

Hug somebody today! I could have used one myself ;-)

Serenely (now!) yours,

~ K

Going to extremes ~ 9/11

   

"More Than Words" ~ Extreme

"I Go To Extremes" ~ Billy Joel

"Extreme Ways" ~ Moby

Some examples of music that contain or are about going to extremes.  Music is so instrumental to my creativity; it inspires much of my own writing as does the written word.  Sometimes I get an idea for prose or short story from something I've read by another author whether it be novel, poetry, blog...whatever someone else has written that sparked my devious pea brain to expand on.  It's that way with many artists I've talked to, others who've created something by inspiration from another's art in some form.  Singing or writing about extremes can take many forms, as these songs demonstrate. Their content is all very different by very different artists. Being extreme in any behavior is almost in any case, a negative action.  Too much or too little of something, anything, can many times be an effort in futility.  No progress is made because not enough was done to further the goal, or too much was given and it dissipates due to overkill.  Even extreme kindness can go the wrong way and smother someone to the point of annoyance.  A good reason not to go to extremes, but find balance.

I struggled with what to write about today.  Not that I don't think it's important to honor those who died in the horrific terrorist attack on our country, I do, but I didn't want to be cliche' about it.  To make light of it by not writing in completeness to show the whole picture would not do justice for those whose lives were tragically changed, or in the extreme case, ended that day.  To go overboard and give too much attention to the barbarians who perpetrated their extreme act of destruction, would do exactly what they want, which is to glorify their actions.  That is the last thing I want to do! Nothing done that day should be glorified except those left behind in the wreckage and ruins who worked tirelessly to help save anyone still breathing.  Paying tribute to those who lost their lives and those lives forever changed by extremists (who consider Americans enemies and want us brutally murdered because we don't believe in their god) in a simple yet meaningful way, is more my style.  I'm a person who believes every little bit helps.  If we all do our part in small ways, it adds up to a collective difference. 

I've read all week first account experiences from people who witnessed the destruction. Most of us probably remember where we were at that exact time, watching or listening in disbelief.  It was like a nightmare come to life on the television screen.  Nothing I can write from that position could come close to what people experienced. Trying to find some way to write about it would be an injustice to those who lived it.  My part is to hopefully, plant a seed of kindness and caring that will grow into others to be more tolerant.  We all have our opinions and those opinions cause disagreements, but it's nothing so serious as to hurt and maim others over. That's a mindset I'll never be able to understand. 

"Live and Let Live" ~ Jefferson Starship

"Imagine" ~ John Lennon

"Leave an Open Door" ~ Roger Clyne & the Peacemakers

All good examples of letting go of hurt, anger, transgressions done to us and live in peace and harmony in spite of differences.  Why is this such a difficult concept for some to grasp? It's very simple to me.  I leave you alone to do as you believe, you leave me alone to do as I believe and we all live in peace, agreeing to disagree.  Instead, there are those who believe anyone who is not with them is against them, is their enemy and must suffer and die.  Not only die, but suffer and die which is a concept I will never be able to understand.  My creator put us here to love each other and take care of each other, not destroy each other.  Sometimes, just letting the music from someone else's soul, absorb into our own will guide us on a path of understanding and tolerance.  That's why music has such a profound effect on my life. Writing comes from the heart and I admire artists who are bold enough to put their souls out there for the rest of us to see in their music, and in some ways judge.  It's enlightening and somewhat redeeming to see honesty and sincerity so freely expressed.

The extremists who persevere to destroy America will not prevail, because hatred only breeds more hatred and will ultimately self destruct in its own blood and vile.  Today I give thanks for living in a country that allows me to speak my mind in such a way, to express my ideas in print without fear of persecution, well...except by those who may comment their own ideas whether in agreement or not, which is most welcome.  I give thanks for people who so selflessly give themselves to defend and protect us, and yes...even for our government which right now is pretty messed up and has our country knotted up in debt and disagreement.  It beats any alternative I can find in any other part of this world.  And, a simple but heartfelt thank you to those who are still living the nightmare of 9/11/2001 for the sacrifices they and/or their families have made.  It's humbling to me and makes me feel very small in the big picture.  I'm just a writer with my own thoughts and ideas, blessed to have a platform to express them.

God bless America!

Somebody you know needs a hug today! Share one with them and rejoice in loving life. 

Peacefully yours,

~ K